Helpless

I think the worst thing is not being able to make your babies feel better.
My Oldest has Croup and it's just awful. He is up all night crying and having coughing fits. And during the day he wont eat and is so exhausted. We have been trying everything . and nothing seems to give him any relief.
Now my 10 month old is showing signs that he is catching this illness also. he has the dripping green goo pouring out of his nose and a yucky wet cough. It seems worse for little babies because they cant say what they are feeling and they cannot have any meds. to help with the cough.
UGH!!!!
I HATE not being able to help my babies feel better. If i could take their pain or sickness away i would in a heartbeat! life just sucks sometimes.

I cannot fathom having a child with an ongoing illness or disease, even cancer. God bless all those parents my hat is off to you. i cant imagine what that feels like.
Im pretty sure this will not be the last time my kids are sick. but for now, it's hard to handle.

God Bless the Child (and thier parents) Who suffer!

How a Mom Can Tell She Has Gained a Few.

Well, if it wasnt already bad enough that i am a little depressed over my body after have my second son 10 months ago, My 3 year old decided to tell his father that his Mommy has a big tummy and then proceeded to lift up my sweatshirt to violently knead my belly flab like play-doh.

So needless to say, there is no denying it anymore, i need to lose weight and work out before i turn into one of those floats in the Macy's Thanksgiving Day parade!!!

Me in a "NutShell" ( i prefer a pretty sea shell but i guess a nutshell works :))

Hmm.. where to I begin?
My name is Stefanie, I was born in March of 86. Im an Aries but dont seem to follow the description of an Aries.. i guess i go against the grain with that one.
I was born in Massachusettes. lived there, went to school there.. you know the drill.
I graduated in 04 although i didnt obtain a diploma because i could not pass the Math MCAS test.

I met my Husband William in Jan. of 03 and have been with him ever since. moved to Vermont at the end of 04, in 06 we had my oldest baby Colden William who just turned 3 yrs old. we were married May of that year. In 07 we moved to a little ranch house in a quiet neighborhood and in 08 i gave birth to my second little boy Benjamin Lucas.

I love ladybugs
I love my kids and Hubby
I have 2 cats and 1 dog
I love my family ( well my hubby's side mostly..lol)
I had surgery on a hernia when i was 3 weeks old at UMASS Med. and it was taped for research for the students
i love all different kinds of music
i love my friends
i love reading
i love movies
i love date nights


So there ya go there's a few tid bits about me.

Um.. i am currently calling my blog "Counting Sheep" i thought i was being creative with the name but after it set in with me more, i'm not quite sure if i like it anymore and am open to suggestions. I just thought it was kinda cute since i would only be able to blog when my kids were sleeping and while i was in bed trying to let the sleepiness seep in so i could actually fall asleep. i dont know. I tried to be creative and witty but now i feel silly..lol

I dont really know where i am trying to go with this blog, but im sure i will figure it out.

Well, off to sleep i go,
I wonder how many sheep i can count before i drift off to sleep?!

xoxo
~Stef~